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Opening credits (dreams or memories?)
Usually when the past is haunting you can remember it
But I'm haunted by a past that has been hidden from me
I'm only 22 and 16 of those years I can't remember
The 6 I can remember have been full of blackouts and nightmares
When I have these nightmares I usually see something inside
Attempting to break free, through my skin
Trying to bring me back to who I am
So I have to ask myself
Are these just dreams
Or are they memories trying to reach the surface
I have to ask myself
Who am I?
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2. |
16 years erased
06:00
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16 years erased
I have reflected inside the looking glass
And I've realized I'm a picture without a past
I know who you are and I know that you're real
You can't keep sifting through the ashes
(well you don't know how this feels)
16 years erased
6 to replace
An innocence laid to waste
Things better left not faced
Life is an empty ball of string
Pulled by the faces of denial
Within the everlasting smile of forgiveness
... In which I've forgotten
This is just a fraction of who I really am
Your life is a reflection of what you comprehend
Why can't you understand that I need to know the truth
Cause this is something repressed that you knew would kill you
16 years erased
6 to replace
An innocence laid to waste
Things better left not faced
Life is an empty ball of string
Pulled by the faces of denial
Within the everlasting smile of forgiveness
... In which I've forgotten
16 years to face
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3. |
A scalpel / a scream
05:12
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I step out of the car
I don't remember driving here
Dark fog house unclear
I dreamt about it for a year
Feel my childhood fears
Still have no face
But I was a child here
Whose mommy and daddy lying on the ground
A scalpel a scream and we all fall down
Someone played doctor now they have no skin
An operation to remove their sins
The voice struck me with chills
It rang down from the upstairs
I feel like a child and I'm scared
Two trails of red greet me as I ascend
A shadowy figure at the end
Two cadavers and a scalpel in his hand
Whose mommy and daddy lying on the ground
A scalpel a scream and we all fall down
Someone played doctor now they have no skin
An operation to remove their sins
Turn to run
Trip on a wheelchair
Head first in the puddle
Slide down the rest of the stairs
The splinters and the voice
Both stab me under the skin
Yelling "Wake up, pick up the phone
This was real and now it begins"
Sweetie wake up it's just one of your nightmares
I watch you every night
Inside your digging through years
Stop, calm down, don't pick up the phone
While your in this condition your not in it alone
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Pull the stitches from my eyes
Here I am in this endless
Nothing that feels so ominous
I start to twitch I don't think I'm alone
Something here to lead me to what's not known
I know your past and what's ahead
A memory search is not to dread
Simply the means to a happy end
You can trust me I am your friend
Pull the stitches from my eyes
As the visions begin to blur
Words vague as my life you give to me
Hollow answers to a hollow history
If you're truly buried within my past
Give me the answers to what I've asked
Without your past you will remain
Hollow confused living in vain
To not know yourself how could you live
But now the answers are not mine to give
Pull the stitches from my eyes
As the visions begin to blur
My lips fail me, drowning me, killing me in old verse
You are my reflection
Wrap yourself in that self-deception
You are my reflection
I am beyond your comprehension
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5. |
A childhood glimpse
04:20
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6. |
Blood under bunk beds
05:16
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Blood under bunk beds
I walk through a doorway my fists are splattered red
A puddle of blood stretches under the bunk beds
I approach and cross a mirror telling me I'm 8
And under the bed something I've hidden waits
I am the childhood toy you broke
Then I couldn't feel the doctors poke
Back in your life here to invoke
The guilt and the person from which you woke
Forgetting it was your way to run
Stitches out now face what you've done
Your rage, it left me paralyzed
Believe it's all a dream and go on with your life
I find a child underneath warm but still
I don't see him move (somehow I know he never will)
I wipe away the blood to see his face
And almost remember him from someplace
This must be a mistake I'd never inflict this break
No not now you've found a cure
Erase 16 years and who you were
As the bruises on my knuckles sink into my mind
The truth begins sting as I start to realize
the reason that my brother's life is paralyzed
Too late to put the stitches back in my eyes
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7. |
Twinfaced
04:34
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Twinfaced
Ask yourself, can I only talk in your mind
Do I mask myself, hold still and hide behind
Ask yourself, am I imprisoned by this chair
Perform this task myself, my hatred's only fair
These aren't dreams they're premonitions
In which my brother speaks and I listen
I realize revenge is his intention
And that he must be faking this condition
Ask yourself, after you hurt me where'd you go
The task to fix yourself, seemed done they let you go
Ask yourself, did I recover from our fight
If I unmask myself you could prove your theory right
These aren't dreams they're premonitions
In which my brother speaks and I listen
I realize revenge is his intention
And that he must be faking this condition
Session after session
No progress just regression
But they kept on pressing
Your forgetting was a blessing
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8. |
All the time in the ward
04:38
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9. |
Layback
05:32
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Worried and frantic I try to turn to her
My beautiful sedative (closest thing to a cure)
Approach our bedroom door, hear a strange noise
On the other side is more than one voice
Watch me rise above
I'll make you beg and wait / Don't make me beg and wait
Till it's time for you my love
For you to enter heaven's gate / For me to enter heaven's gate
This is your wife not mine
But I look like you so I'm inside
I've found you favorite place to hide
I didn't have to lie and I wasn't denied
Watch me rise above
I'll make you beg and wait / Don't make me beg and wait
Till it's time for you my love
For you to enter heaven's gate / For me to enter heaven's gate
I open the door and it's me
(like watching myself from the outside)
I walk toward the bed it's not me
(there spreading heaven's gates open wide_
He looks back and he sees me
(catching him with his hands all over my wife)
He smiles and whispers to me
"It's this easy for me to steal your life"
You think she's guiltless
You would let her go
But here's the twist
It was me and she knows
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10. |
Shift
04:20
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Shift
I know you know in bed that wasn't me
Who you were giving it up to so easily
You've been my angel, my best friend, and lover
But now you've traded me in and let in my brother
I love you but you're scaring me
Your accusations are crazy
She lies, you caught him right between her thighs
You sculpted something you could love
Out of my nothing with your gloves
So I guess that I am just as fake
As the look a like liar you now take
I love you but you're scaring me
Your accusations are crazy
He's paralyzed how could we
Is this really what you think of me?
She lies, you caught him right between her thighs
Don't look away when I'm yelling at you
Don't shift your eyes to something new
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11. |
Slutcutter
05:36
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The argument is over (and now it's black out)
In the wheelchair sits her lover (I'll throw him back out)
Visions fading try to fight (against the blackout)
She ran into our room for the night (She won't be back out)
Darkness engulfing me
Filters all sensory
So maybe I'm just dreaming
A demon starts to go
And somehow I know
Tonight there will be screaming
Into the bedroom I'm creeping
(it was the scene of her crime)
It's not revenge unless she's weeping (no sleeping)
Snatch her from dreamtime
Brother don't be scared (You're in a blackout)
I want you to be prepared (When you're back out)
There's a brand new kind of pain (After your blackout)
For your good let me explain (Before you're back out)
I was just testing her
To find out if you were
The only man in her life
But she failed the test
So just like the rest
Now she gets to feel the knife
Into the bedroom I'm creeping
(it was the scene of her crime)
It's not revenge unless she's weeping (no sleeping)
Snatch her from dreamtime
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Mourning the wife / killing the actor
There his is in the corner
even now pretending to be paralyzed
He killed your wife and now he wants you to take the fall
End the scene
Kill the actor
Die having had no life
You spent it killing mine
Drop the act fight back
Your brother wasn't faking
Wasn't scheming, from you he wasn't taking
You just killed a quadriplegic
You were the victim now you're just sick
Consolation prize I'll tell you the truth
So it can go and rot in your jail cell with you
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13. |
A fraction of one
05:50
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A fraction of one
By now you're realizing that I'm not your brother
I am the real you you're just the other
You were created by me when I was sixteen
The only reason you existed was necessity
You started out sane with no haunting memories
A clean bill of mental health so they set us free
For awhile you had control and built a decent life
But you always sensed that I was there a mental knife
Little doses of my memories
Curiosity helped me survive
Put the puzzle together
At the cost of all these lives
Just give in
You're not real you don't have to feel this pain
Just give in
If you're no place you don't have to face what you did
There's nothing left to live for
In your world that we destroyed
Time to say goodbye
My little broken toy
Just give in
You're not real you don't have to feel this pain
Just give in
If you're no place you don't have to face what you did
I am just a fraction of one
We are one, the sum of both our fractions
Just give in
You're not real you don't have to feel this pain
Just give in
If you're no place you don't have to face what you did
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14. |
Replaced
04:57
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Replaced
As long as I can remember this dreams been reoccurring
Something inside gains power and starts stirring
I will waste and I will be replaced
In my mind, I see myself replaced
On the back of my skull, another face
The vertabrae poke through my skin
And stretches all together to cut my back open
I'm not falling apart
I hold the pieces together (and together they rot)
Now where ever I will go I will waste
Till I give in and I'm replaced
The arms pull out of their fleshy sleeves
His whole skeleton starts to leave
And I'm twitching as a puddle of skin on the floor
Lying there helpless (can't fight anymore)
Soon to be the only one
He stomps in my flesh until I am gone
I'm not falling apart
I hold the pieces together (and together they rot)
Now where ever I will go I will waste
Till I give in and I'm replaced
This nightmare is the truth (not a dream anymore)
There's someone else inside winning this war
All those I'd say good bye to left long before
All my reasons for existing are no more
Finally after 6 years, it's just me
But then again, there has never really been anyone else
No longer am I sharing a body
No longer am I sharing a mind
No longer am I a fraction of one
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15. |
End credits
02:22
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